some pictures from syria

well i thought it would be nice to show a little bit of what i could see in syria.
so enjoy :)

i will write soon how i am doing and what has been happening in my last weeks.
for now: i am alive and still looking for some future options.

thanks for all you prayers and the replies i got.
miss you all
sebi

a peaceful moment

it is sunday and i decided to visit my parents church.
i have never been there, but they knew me as they had prayed for me a few times.

it was a good sunday service.
the message was based on the question "is it rewarding?"
is being a christian rewarding?
i enjoyed the service and the message.
the answer "of course it is rewarding".

it was interesting to see how i responded to the message.
in the last months i have not asked this question. it never crossed my mind to ask this question. for me living a life that glorifies God is reward enough.
being in a dangerous situation where i can share my believe in an extreme way is for me a blessing, a reward. and of course we should not seek earthly rewards, we should seek eternal life and that means sacrifice.
we are all on a way, on a journey with God and i have learned that this journey will not always meet your understanding of life but it meets Gods understanding and that is so much bigger than we are.
we don't need to be rewarded for our faith, we should trust God and seek eternal life which is the highest reward we gain. and that only out of grace, Gods grace.
First sacrifice and second receive by grace.

well these are some thoughts that came up in my mind after this sunday service.
but there is one more thing i wane share.

while i was sitting in the back of the church i had a peaceful moment.
i had walked with my dad to the church, which was amazing.
just think about it, walking to church through your neighborhood your bible in your hand, where everybody who sees you can see your on your way to church.
doesn't this has something exciting. well while i was sitting in church it hit me.
there i was sitting in a church in a christian country, free to show my faith, free to share my believes, free to love God in public. We are blessed brothers and sister to live a life in a way not many can live it.
be aware of the fact that this is not normal, this is grace.

in love
sebi

now finally the SYRIA STORY in english

Hey there,
i finished writing down what happened in my time in syria.
i would love to give you a copy of the story, but i decided not to publish it here on the blog. so i would need your email address. if you are interested please give me your address and i will send you the story.

thank you for being patient;)
blessings
sebi

sleep where are you?

hey there.

i had promised a story, but i have to be honest and say that in the moment i struggle a lot putting into words what is in my mind.
i am now back in germany for more than a week and in the moment it seems like i am on my way to rock bottom.
i find no rest and sleep seems to hide somewhere, where i am not able to find it.
this is rather a request for prayer than a nice and shiny update.

i wish i could write something encouraging and amazing, but right now i feel somehow empty and lost.
i know god is there no question!
but i wish he would talk more in the moment.
or is it me that is not able to listen right now?!

sebi

soon

hey there
i made it home safe but i have a story to tell.
so soon here on my blog the SYRIA story feat the secret police and a long night in a cell, so please come back and read what happened

blessings
sebi