Tuesday, January 26, 2010

what to tell you guys first?

WOW...this might be the best word to describe what happened the last two days.
i have been so blessed! i realized, that i have the most amazing friends EVER, that i am actually not that bad in shape and that i am not ashamed to make a fool out of myself ;)

on Monday i finally started packing all the things for the Logos Hope. it is heck a lot of stuff, but i was able to do most of it. i pushed for it, because i wanted to join my friends @ a friends house, for a little brake. well in the end it did not look to good, so i cancelled my plans to join them.

instead i ended up going running with Micheal our chief mate again.
he is a running freak. he ran more than 20 marathons around the world and going running with him is like a school lesson. every time, he is sharing a bit more about his secret how he runs. so every time i learn. we ended up hitting the 20K.
that is by far the longest run i ever did. i felt really good afterwards, so next time we might go for 25?30? we see. by the end of our time here, it might be the full 42K? but that is still far far away.

as we came back to the ship, i ended up asking again, if i could join my friends and WHUP it was OK. so i ended up visiting them and man, we had such a cool time.
we stayed only for one day, well they left on Saturday evening, and i joined on Monday night. Tuesday was by FAR the best day i had in a very long time. we slept in until 12pm and then went out for lunch.
Toni a local friend took us to the RITZ. so we ended up eating in a *****star hotel ha ha...so unreal but awesome. to feel better after such a good and long meal, we walked trough Orchard road. at the end of the day, we went to a nice music bar and had a really nice time. well what can i say, i was able to show Singapore, that i have an amazing voice (joking), so i went on stage jamming with the live band. ha ha, great fun. again unreal but amazing.
To sum up: by the end of yesterday, i ate in the RITZ, went shopping and sang on a stage. feels almost like being a real Rock Star ;)

i will add up some pictures later, so for now you have to imagine all of this, until i will show you everything. have a great and blessed day.
sebi

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Guess what

hey, look what i found, man thats so funny ;) long ago but still hillarius. we made this video for the new deckies, as a welcome. man, now just a year ago. haha

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Deck Skills.

hello i thought, i would write ab it about the totally useful skills, that we learn in our time in the deck department. well besides doing security or learning how to steer the old lady, we also learn how to do rope work and how to throw a "heaving line". a Heaving line is a special rope, that has a monkey fist at the end. a monkey fist is a special knot, with a heavy object in it. you use a heaving line, to throw it down onto the quayside as the first connection from the ship to the port worker. on the heaving line we connect the mooring line, which is the line, that secures the ship to the berth.

well last week, we had a "contest" in the department, this time we tried it the opposite way, so we ended up trowing the heaving lines from the quayside onto the ship. we became so "good" in it, that in the end we tried to throw them trough a very narrow opening, just twice as big as the monkey fist itself. well and here you can see the end result ;)




ha, i love Deck
have a blessed day
sebi

Friday, January 22, 2010

my first Doulos Devotion, my designer Diana F+ and me coming home

Well as the headline already indicates, there is a lot happening. let me start to tell you, what happened a few days ago. i got asked to speak in front the community about first THS chapter 2. so on Thursday morning, i gave the doulos devotion. it went well. i of course as a German, say, it could have been better a lot better, but I'm glad i made it. it was amazing to see how much fun it is, to study on a topic, collect background information, get the bigger picture and then collect thoughts. i ended up reading it out instead of speaking without the paper, which went not that well. but it was OK, here the devotion itself, i hope you will use the chance, to give me PRODUCTIVE feedback...please
My Diana F+! yesterday i had one of these days, when you look at something you like and you suddenly realize, how ugly it is. so i ended up working on my Diana F+ and i have to say, the end product is amazing, hui fung would love it ;) well and because i would like to show you what i mean, here the new sebi "designer" Diana F+ ok and here the biggest news. ready? bodom, sebi will come home. i had plans, to stay away for 2 more years, but this won't work out, so i will come home and stay in Germany for a while and study. i have to say, i am excited and i kind of can't wait to find out, what god wants me to study. we see. there is no date that i can tell you, but it will be around march, but that again needs communication with my church and the home office. but sebi will be in Germany soon. and he is excited. ok my dear friends enough for today. i wish you gods love all around you! your sebi

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

hammer tag and Gog is good

wow, what a good day i had yesterday. let me just share a bit about what is going on in the moment.

well two days ago, i came into my cabin and my south korean cabin mate handed me a 35mm film and just said "here, found it in charlie". WOW the entire time, i wrestle with myself, if i should by a 35mm film, again and then my cabine mate hands me this more than apreciated gift. but that is not all, i called mauritz our photographer up and asked him, if i could use his canon AE-1 programm, to take some pictures. this camera from the 80's is more than just a normal film camera. big was my face, when he said yes and in the moment i picked it up from his office, he hands me 4 35mm films and just said "here, don't need them". HAHA why me? that rocks.
i ended up taking 72 pics in less then 3 hours. some nice ones, well we see :)



and then later the day, i find out, that the 20€ made it all the way to me, so i ended up going to vivo city and bying a diana f+. how amazing can god be? in one day, he blessed me so much. it took me sometime to realize, that i am now a owner of a diana f+ and i still struggle believing.




in the evening, i ended up visiting a local lady with three of my good friends. she invited us for dinner and we had a really good time off the ship, talking and eating. i took some pictures, but with the AE-1, so it will take sometime, until i know, how they turned out :)

i am blessed in the moment and i can't wait to puch the shutter on my Diana f+ for the first time...later today muahahaha.

yesterday was a good day.

Monday, January 11, 2010

letzte und beste seawatch. last and best seewache

here some pictures from the last seewatch i had with carola, samuel and jenny. wow, we had so much fun and good and godly talks.

hier ein paar bilder von der letzten seewache, die ich zusammen mit jenny, samuel und carola hatte. wow wir hatten so viel spass und gute tiefe gespraeche ueber den glauben.



waiting and being patient

well my dear friends have you ever waited for something that long, that it made you think, do i really need it?
this is the moment you will find out, if its really worth waiting for.
just a few things that i am waiting on in the moment.

1. 20 euros, that are on the way to my bank acount, so that i can by me a diana f+ (lomography)
2. if i end up studying in germany or going to be away for another 2 years.

well theres a heck lot more i am waiting on, but these two are the main things on the moment ;) good there would be one more thing, but sometime else more to that one.

i find it really interesting to see, how things change, if your waiting for it. it will raise a lot of questions in your mind, that would have never been there, if you would not have waited. for example: if we take number one, do i really need a diana f+. ok everybody who does not know what a diana f+ is, find it out. well i can say yes i really need one, why? because it will make me creative, more then i am in the moment it will realease a lot of potiential, that i do not use in the moment. so i will end up creating things, that i do not even have in min in the moment. i will gloryfie god with what i will do, at least i like to think so. well so there is no way to not get a diana f+ ;)

well lets look at what i just wrote. why is god suddenly in the picture? is it not about what i want? well at the beginning yes, but later you will see things, you havent before. like in this example, will god get more glory, if i end up bying a diana f+? at the beginning, if you want something, its all about you, you want to have it, i need it and thats why i bye it now. well but as soon as you wait for it, you end up seeing, that its not only about you. so you end up asking yourself, well what do others get from that, what does god get, will i end up doing good or bad with it? well and so you can easily find out, what god will is...well sometimes :)

hmm but everybody thinks different and sees things in a different light.
but take time to think about hings, before you get them, make sure you need them and ask yourself the question, will it bring god glory. funny my mum alwasy said these things to me, but i never knew that she was right, until now.

have a great day my friends
i truly miss all of you, who are far away and i'm glad to have the ones around me, that are here. god bless
-sebi-

here something my friends are waiting for, me getting a hair cut. but that will take sometime ;) sebi is reaching out for the long hair again



hallo und guten "morgen", dies ist die freie uebersetzung von dem, was sich oben befindet, also bitte nicht alles wort fuer wort nachschaun und mir dann sagen, ich haette alles ganz anders uebersetzt ;)

hey, habt ihr schon mal auf etwas so lange gewartet, dass ihr euch gefragt habt, brauche ich das wriklich? in solchen momenten findet man dann heraus, ob es sich wirklich lohnt auf das zu warten, was man unbedingt haben moechte.
hier zwei sachen auf die ich im moment warte.

1. 20 euro, die auf dem weg zu mir sind, damit ich mir endlich eine diana f+ kaufen kann (lomography)
2. auf neuigkeiten von zuhause, ob ich nach hause komme um zu studieren, oder wieder fuer 2 jahre raus in die welt gehe.

hmm natuerlich gibt es da noch jede menge andere sachen, auf die ich warte. besonders eine sache faellt mir da noch ein, aber dazu irgendwann mal mehr ;)

ich finde es sehr interesant zu sehen, wie sich dinge aendern koennen, wenn man auf etwas wartet. man fragt sich auf einmal fragen, die man zuvor garnicht hatte.
zum beispiel: nehmen wir mal punkt eins als beispiel. brauche ich wirklich eine diana f+? ok, jeder der jetzt nicht weiss, was eine diana f+ ist, findet das jetzt erstmal schnell heraus. ich kann sagen, ich brauche wirklich eine, aber warum? weil sie meine creativitaet steigern wird, sie wird seiten an mir hervor bringen, die ich vorher garnicht sehen konnte. sie wird mir erlauben dinge zu machen, die gott am ende ehre bringen, hmm zumindest hoffe ich das ;)
deswegen brauche ich eine diana f+

so schaun wir uns das mal an, was ich da gerade geschrieben habe, was hat gott denn auf einmal damit zu tun? geht es hier nicht um das was ich haben will? hmm anfangs ja, aber spaeter werden einem dinge klar, die man vorher garnicht sehen konnte. in dem beispiel eben, hey bringt es gott mehr ehre, wenn ich eine diana f+ kaufe?
anfangs, wenn wir etwas sehen, was wir haben wollen geht es nur um uns, ich will das haben, ich brauche das und deswegen kaufe ich es jetzt auch, doch sobald man anfaengt zu warten, geht es auf einmal nicht mehr nur darum, was ich will. so kommen fragen auf wie, was haben andere davon, was hat gott davon, werde ich am ende gutes damit tun oder nicht...tia und so findet man dann schnell heraus, was gottes will ist und was nicht...naja manchmal eben :)

jeder sieht das mit warten und meiner diana f+ natuerlich etwas anders ;)
aber nimm das naechste mal doch einfach etwas zeit und denk nach, bevor du etwas kaufst.
warte einfach mal ein wenig, sei dir sicher, du brauchst es wirklich und frag dich mal, ob es gott mehr ehere bringt. schon lustig, meine mutter hat mir das schon immer gesagt, aber ich habe es nie verstanden, bis jetzt :)

ich wunesche euch allen einen gesegneten tag, ich vermisse alle meine freunde, die weit weg sind und bin froh ueber die, die hier sind.
gottes segen sebi.

ps: das bild zeigt etwas, auf das meine freunde warten, sebi der einen haarschnitt bekommt, aber darauf koennen sie noch lange warten, denn der sebi laesst seine haare wachsen :)

Thursday, January 7, 2010

english oder deutsch

i am torn between writing in german or english in the moment. the german translation for this post is at the end of the english version. i find a lot of my english speaking friends complaining about the fact, that it takes them a long time to translate all of the stuff i end up writing in german. i am working on a way to please both sides german and english, we will see.

yesterday was a strange day, we went to the airport with jeff in the evening and said good bye. we tried to be funny and dressed uo in suits. looked awesome, but turned out as a big joke in the moment the money for the tickets ran out. endet up getting my last 10 cent for my ticket from a nice singaporien guy. well still a nice show.

how i'm feeling in the moment? well it's "ok". i'm back in my cage trying to figure out, what we will send to the logos hope and what not. nothing easier than that, as i know exacly what the need and what not ;)
besides that i try to be a bit creative, so from time to time i end up producing a peace of art.
well my friends i wish you a good blessed day.

need some prayer points?
-i will give my first and last doulos devotion on the 21 this month, just pray that i will listen to gods voice.
-i would love to end up talking with my big brother on the phone these days
-JEFF KELLY, that he made his way safe to the philippines and will have a godly time
-my future, what ever that means

god bless you
sebi



TRANSLATION

ich bin im moment sehr hin und her gerissen, ob ich deutsch oder englisch schreiben soll, finde ich doch immer mehr meiner englisch sprechenden freunde mit woerterbuechern vor dem rechner sitzen. ich habe noch nicht herausgefunden, wie ich beides zu gleichen zeit machen kann ohne zu viel selber uebersetzen zu muessen, aber wir werden sehen.

gestern war ein komischer tag, wir waren abends am flughafen mit jeff und haben auf wieder sehen gesagt. durchaus bis jetzt einer der traurigsten abschiede, den ich hatte.
wir haben uns den spass erlaubt und sind alle in anzuegen zum flughafen gegangen, sah cool aus, wurde dann aber zum lacher, als uns das geld fuer die tickets ausging :)
so reichte mir ein netter singaporien dann noch die letzten 10 cent fuer mein ticket. tia dann eben doch alles nur show :)

wie es mir gerade geht? puh so lala, befinde mich wieder mal im cage und versuche mir ein bild von dem zu machen, was alles auf die LH (logos Hope) geschickt werden soll und was nicht. nicht so einfach, weiss ich doch nicht was die wollen und was nicht, wir werden sehen. nebenbei versuche ich ein wenig kreativ zu sein und so kommen dann ab und zu ein paar "kunstwerke" zu stande.
gut, meine lieben freunde ich wuensche euch einen gesgneten tag.

ein paar gebetsanliegen gefaellig?
-ich werde am 21 meine erste doulos devotion (andacht) geben, ist schon was groesseres.
-wuerde gerne meinen grossen bruder endlich mal telefonisch erreichen
-JEFF KELLY, hoffe er hat seinen weg sicher in die philippinen gefunden
-meine zukunft, was auch immer das sein mag

gottes fetten segen
sebi

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

BYE JEFF

how do you say good bye to somebody like JEFF KELLY?

dear jeff i know i wrote you a card, but there is so much more to say.
so i will write you this entry on my blog, its just for you and well a whole lot of people will read it (maybe).

DUDE you are AMAZING. yes i think thats a good way to start this post.
Jeff Kelly is the pefect example for a crazy good looking american dude with a perfect sense of humor. He makes you laugh in ways you never thought you could. He motivates you to make stupid jokes all the time. he brings out the best in you and shows you the bad sides, for you to grow and to work on. He takes care of who you are is interested in your personality and lets you know that he loves you ALL THE TIME. Jeff was there for me, when i needed somebody to talk in anglesea. Jeff was the first person i jumped of the ship with. He tried to teach me how to surf, how to love people just like their are, how to read my bible more often, how to pray, how to trust god. He made me give up my dreams to god in order to receive total peace in my heart about what comes next. Jeff never judged me, never talked bad about me, never hurt me, never was a ashole, never let me down. jeff was there, when i needed somebody to punch, somebody to run with, somebody to mess around, somebody to pray with. He allowed me to see a bit of who he really is, he allowed me to challenge him. Nobody ever gave me the feeling i can open up with guys no matter what, like he did. he was the one i could ask to hit me in the face, when i needed it. he was the one i had underwater fights in singapore. He was left behind with me in cambodia, when the ship went for emergency anker. He is part of so many good memories i have from the ship. he was part of my cabin church. he is my friend, brother and teacher.

Jeff Kelly i will miss you and i will be praying for you.
DUDE take Care.

last night with jeff and friends:
Tommy, Jeremy, Jeff, Thomas, Me, Francis

JEff i will miss you, i will be praying for you and i will always ask myself the question, will i end up seeing you again?
i thank you for all the good memories, for who you are, the ways you impacted my life, you made me a better person...dude take care ok?! have fun in the philippines and the in nepal. may gods hand of protection and peace be with you, may his love be before you behind you and all around you. may you feel his touch in your life in a way, you never did. be blessed friend. be blessed brother.

good bye
sebi

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

haben sie schon mal zu 200 Freunden in einem monat aufwiedersehen gesagt?

ich weunschte ich koennte diese frage mit einem nein beantworten, doch kann ich leider nicht.

wir befinden uns im wunderschoenem singapore, weihnachten ist vorbei und auch neun jahr hat seinen weg zu uns gefunden. so befinde ich mich im neuen jahr und erwische mich immer wieder dabei 2009 als datum zu schreiben. glaube ich bin da ein wenig zurueck geblieben. ob das wohl daran liegt, dass sich weihnachten und neu jahr nicht als solches angefuehlt hat? denkbar, doch ich glaube es liegt an mehr als nur dieser tatsache. so ist in meinem kopf ein chaos, durch das ich selber kaum durchblicken kann. da hilft nurnoch auf die knie gehen und beten.

ja es ist ein neues jahr und ein neues jahr bedeutet doch immer, dass alles ganz anders wird oder nicht?! oder hat da etwa unser lieber assistant director recht, wenn er sagt 2010 wird genauso interestant wie 2009?
rueckblickend auf das jahr 2009, kann ich sagen es war ein krasses jahr. ein auf und ab, wie ich es noch nie in meinem leben hatte. neue eindruecke, neue menschen, viel gott und wenig zu hause. zi realisieren, dass es inzwischen mehr als ein jahr ist, dass ich an bord dieser alten dame (Doulos) lebe, faellt schwer, rennt die zeit doch nur so davon. ich bin dankbar fuer das letzte jahr, habe ich doch viel ueber mich selber gelernt, ein paar gute sachen und viel zu viel schlechtes. mag ich mich? hmm stell dir die frage mal selber und dann gleich darauf die frage warum!

ich wuerde euch gerne mitteilen, dass ich endlich weiss, wo es hin geht, dass ich alles gepackt habe und mich schon mit einem fuss aus der tuer/ von bord befinde, aber das kann ich leider nicht. so stehe ich immer noch im dunkeln und versuche vergebens den lcihtschalter zu finden. ich glaube ich sollte einfach darauf warten, dass jemand anderes kommt und das licht anmacht. oder ich gehe einfach blind los?

tia, wie ihr seht tut sich hier eigentlich NICHTS. fast ein monat rum und ich stehe immer noch an der selben stelle, was ja auch nicht so schlimm ist. bin ich lieber hier, wo ich es mag es warm (25-30+) ist, ich nette menschen um mich herum habe und gott zu mir spricht, als irgendwo in der welt wo alles anders ist (damit meine ich jetzt nicht essen).

ich hoffe, dass ihr beim lesen auf euer eigenes leben schaun koennt und euch freuen koennt, dass alles gut ist. das ihr wisst, was in einem monat vor euren augen liegt, dass ich nicht staendig zu den menschen mit denen ihr ein zuhause geteilt habt auf wiedersehen sagen muesst und das ihr frieden im herzen habt.

heute heute mal ein wenig melancholische sebi verabschiedet sich jetzt.
seit gesegnet
euer sebi